I didn't realize how quickly September was going to fly by! This weekend is the last weekend in September, which means I need to go apple picking, something I wasn't actually planning on for this weekend. I am very much a planner, and now feel all discombobulated because I have to can instead of do other stuff...well...my goal is to can some applesauce and apple jelly. Actually, if you have read this blog recently, you may realize that I have intended to can a lot of things, and yet not one thing is canned in my house...except pints upon pints of strawberry jam :-)
The weather in Maine at the moment is absolutely beautiful. It has been in the 80's the past couple days, and it is supposed to hit 90 tomorrow...90! My pepper plants are all budding again, and I have a ton of green peppers that just came out of nowhere. Unfortunately I don't think my jalapenos are going to have enough time to mature before the frost comes...bummer. I'm definitely thinking that I will save some of the green pepper seeds though for next year. It will be my first attempt at seed saving...so I have no clue what I am supposed to do, but the fact that there isn't all the slimy stuff like in tomatoes, I think I will have a better time with it all :-)
The house is shaping up quite well. Matt has been painting the trim in the living room, and it looks great! One more window in there and then the door trim. I will be happy when all the painting is done...whenever that happens. Hopefully sooner rather then later. I also want to start cleaning up the upstairs. I need a room to put all of my craft stuff, and every single room upstairs is filled with construction stuff, empty cardboard boxes, boxes and boxes of books and other things we haven't unpacked. I am hopeful that I will have a craft room soon though, otherwise people will not be receiving Christmas presents this year :-P
Sorry for the randomness and timing of posts as of late...my mind has been quite jumbled for the past month or so. Hopefully soon I will be back on track!
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
one big complaining post - sorry
So...I'm bored. What's new, right? Why is it that I get bored so easily? Even when I am busy I am bored. I think that it must have something to do with being part of this instant gratification society that I live in. I get bored with work, I get bored with home, I get bored with routine...ahhh...routine...how I love it so...yet at the same time...bored.
What can I do to change that? I have no clue whatsoever. Usually when I get bored, I tend to have a large life change heading my way...first job out of college...soooooo boring...did it for 2 years then I got married and moved to Boston. Lived in Boston...liked it at first...then didn't like all the traffic...all the people...and the constant barrage of "stuff." Our apartment flooded, I quit my job in Boston and we moved back to Maine.
Now, this whole thing about being bored, doesn't mean that I am not happy. I am, probably, the happiest I have ever been in my life. But, I don't feel like things are going the way I want them to go. This summer I had a great garden, but was unable to put away ANY of it. Perhaps I need to stop eating so much? I had these great intentions...didn't get anywhere though. I want to be at home cooking and cleaning. I want to learn to knit something other then a rectangular *scarf, towel, washcloth, whatever else is square or rectangular* I bought a sewing machine, and have sewed ONE thing, a lovely bag to put my knitting stuff in. OK, so the bag isn't THAT lovely, but I am happy with it :-) I want to learn to sew clothes...well...I used to know how...but now...not so much.
I think part of my problem is the house not being done - will it ever be done? My sister-in-law is great, "look at how much you HAVE finished!" Yes...but really...is that good enough? Of course not. I always feel like my life is on hold while I am finishing up some other project. How can I get out of that? How can I relax enough to just live without worrying about every other little thing that isn't done? Well, the short answer is I can't. I don't think it is possible for me to relax. I seriously need to go on some type of medication because my anxiety is up to HERE. You can pretend that you just saw my hand fly straight above my head :-)
What is the next step then? Do I just continue as is, days just passing me by? Any suggestions on staying motivated? On not letting myself get bored? It isn't that I have a lack of stuff to do...maybe the problem is that I have SO much stuff to do, that instead of doing it, I just watch it pile and make excuses as to why it can't be done....yeah...it is probably the latter :-)
OK, so this post was a big jumbled mess...sorry...just had to get some thoughts out :-) I'm hoping that once I get out of this funk I can post something a little more meaningful!
What can I do to change that? I have no clue whatsoever. Usually when I get bored, I tend to have a large life change heading my way...first job out of college...soooooo boring...did it for 2 years then I got married and moved to Boston. Lived in Boston...liked it at first...then didn't like all the traffic...all the people...and the constant barrage of "stuff." Our apartment flooded, I quit my job in Boston and we moved back to Maine.
Now, this whole thing about being bored, doesn't mean that I am not happy. I am, probably, the happiest I have ever been in my life. But, I don't feel like things are going the way I want them to go. This summer I had a great garden, but was unable to put away ANY of it. Perhaps I need to stop eating so much? I had these great intentions...didn't get anywhere though. I want to be at home cooking and cleaning. I want to learn to knit something other then a rectangular *scarf, towel, washcloth, whatever else is square or rectangular* I bought a sewing machine, and have sewed ONE thing, a lovely bag to put my knitting stuff in. OK, so the bag isn't THAT lovely, but I am happy with it :-) I want to learn to sew clothes...well...I used to know how...but now...not so much.
I think part of my problem is the house not being done - will it ever be done? My sister-in-law is great, "look at how much you HAVE finished!" Yes...but really...is that good enough? Of course not. I always feel like my life is on hold while I am finishing up some other project. How can I get out of that? How can I relax enough to just live without worrying about every other little thing that isn't done? Well, the short answer is I can't. I don't think it is possible for me to relax. I seriously need to go on some type of medication because my anxiety is up to HERE. You can pretend that you just saw my hand fly straight above my head :-)
What is the next step then? Do I just continue as is, days just passing me by? Any suggestions on staying motivated? On not letting myself get bored? It isn't that I have a lack of stuff to do...maybe the problem is that I have SO much stuff to do, that instead of doing it, I just watch it pile and make excuses as to why it can't be done....yeah...it is probably the latter :-)
OK, so this post was a big jumbled mess...sorry...just had to get some thoughts out :-) I'm hoping that once I get out of this funk I can post something a little more meaningful!
Sunday, September 9, 2007
what we've been up to this summer...
Making homemade pizza for the very first time...yum!
Visiting my favorite brother (only) and his beautiful new wife.
Fighting off these very scary looking tomato hornworms...we thought we only had one...we were wrong.
Having family BBQ's. This is actually over Labor Day and the first *official* entertaining I have done at our new house :-D
Visiting my favorite brother (only) and his beautiful new wife.
Fighting off these very scary looking tomato hornworms...we thought we only had one...we were wrong.
Having family BBQ's. This is actually over Labor Day and the first *official* entertaining I have done at our new house :-D
Picking many many tomatoes...this isn't even half of it. Surprisingly enough, I haven't canned a blessed thing, instead I just use them up during the week. I suppose I could have canned some...but oh well. Instead, I have had my fill of homemade tomato sauce with organic local sausage, fresh tomatoes on homemade pizza, lot's of pico de gallo and guacamole, raw tomatoes (my favorite) and a bunch of other things I can't think of right now!
And last but not least (for my lovely sister-in-law) pictures of our *mostly* finished dining room. Matt did a great job with all the painting and laying the flooring down...usually I help...but not with this room :-) And just an FYI that blue trim leading into the kitchen...yeah...that was everywhere...and we are still trying to get rid of it! Slowly but surely that icky blue will be gone from my life :-)
Saturday, September 8, 2007
I haven't been...
intentionally ignoring my blog. But, that seems to be what is happening right now. I think I am have hit a block in what to write, or maybe I am just thinking too much of my own life and can't form coherent sentences for others to read.
Do you ever wonder if your life is really going in the direction God desires it to be? I'm not saying when things are going wrong, but when things are going right? I feel like I am in that place right now. Can't seem to make decisions about what I should do next, but there is nothing in my life that is making me upset, just the opposite really, I am the happiest I have been in a very long time. I guess it is just nerves. I am now in the latter half of my 20's and need to be a grown up. I need to figure out what is right for my family. It's kind of stressful.
In other news, we have been working a lot on the house, part of the reason I haven't been posting. Our dining room walls are painted a lovely red now, and the floor is almost all down. Just need to paint the built in book case (my favorite part of the house) and paint the trim. Then that room will be done...done. That will be nice. I think that maybe the fact that we are living in a constant construction project is part of what brings the stress into my life...it's coming together though...and then we can start on the upstairs. Yay!
Do you ever wonder if your life is really going in the direction God desires it to be? I'm not saying when things are going wrong, but when things are going right? I feel like I am in that place right now. Can't seem to make decisions about what I should do next, but there is nothing in my life that is making me upset, just the opposite really, I am the happiest I have been in a very long time. I guess it is just nerves. I am now in the latter half of my 20's and need to be a grown up. I need to figure out what is right for my family. It's kind of stressful.
In other news, we have been working a lot on the house, part of the reason I haven't been posting. Our dining room walls are painted a lovely red now, and the floor is almost all down. Just need to paint the built in book case (my favorite part of the house) and paint the trim. Then that room will be done...done. That will be nice. I think that maybe the fact that we are living in a constant construction project is part of what brings the stress into my life...it's coming together though...and then we can start on the upstairs. Yay!
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