Have you ever felt the intense desire and need to write? I have that right now, but guess what, I can't think of one blessed thing to write about. I don't know if all of my creativity has been lost, or what the real issue is. I have tons of thoughts in my head, but I can't seem to get them down on paper. Why not? It is pretty frustrating to say the least. I think that sometimes I feel like I am completely lost in my mind and can't express what I need to. Not to say that I am losing my mind :-) So no worries there!
My update on life is going to have to suffice for the time being. My garden is pretty much done I think. I am going to start pulling all the green tomatoes to try and ripen them in the house, and then get rid of everything else. I'd like to dig up part of the yard and get it ready for next year's garden as well, but since I don't have any time to actually do that...I'm not sure it will get done...maybe though :-)
We have our wood stove, and I am extremely happy about that. We still need to build the chimney. Matt is going back and forth on whether to take down the old chimney and build a new one in it's place, or to just put a pipe up through the house...I am opting for the pipe, easier, cleaner, and less expensive. Not sure if it is the best long term solution though. Matt is still working on the upstairs as well. He edged the entire apartment this weekend, so now we just need to finish priming and then paint...or maybe we will just leave the primer as the paint. I don't know. I want to get the place rented, and if it takes too much longer, I'm afraid we won't have a renter for the winter.
I think that all of these concerns are why I can't write, because I keep thinking about money and all that that entails. Someday I will learn to just let go of all of the worldly decisions and trust God, but it hasn't happened yet, and I am not feeling too confident about it happening ever at this point. Awful thing to say, I know, but I haven't learned how to not worry yet. If anyone has any pointers, they would be greatly appreciated.
I've been trying to de-clutter my life. We have so much "stuff" in the house. I don't even know if we actually need it all. I have a hard time throwing things away, like christmas cards, birthday cards, letters etc. I have a lot of "memory" boxes, and can't seem to part with those things. Yet, they continue to clutter my house and my life. I could definitely go through the house and get rid of everything that we don't need/use, but I know as soon as the trash man takes it away, I will want it all back. Maybe I will go nuts today and throw everything away. I am in a cleaning mood...
OK, well that is about all for now. I will eventually write something interesting, I promise, but for now I need to de-clutter and organize.
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you still wrote a solid posting, even if you feel you wrote "nothing." it sounds like you guys are making good headway. i agree the pipe for the stove may be the easiest and cleanest solution for this winter really. deep breath, i'm sure you'll get a renter in there at some point. and there's nothing really wrong with worrying, it's just knowing how to stop when it gets to be overwhelming. sounds like by decluttering your environment maybe you are also decluttering mentally. at least that tends to be the case for me! :-) hope you have a great week!! how's the baby?!
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