ramblings

It's amazing to me how much time goes by without me actually accomplishing anything. Does anyone else have this problem? It seems like I will just sort of go along with my day to day stuff, and forget to actually enjoy what is in front of me. I am one of those people that is always looking to the next goal, what will be accomplished next, how fast can I get there etc. Of course, I forget along the way to actually be in the now.

In college I had to do an outward bound type trip called La Vida. I spent 2 weeks kayaking through upstate New York. It was awesome, and challenging...and I hated most of it while I was there, mainly because it was 45 degrees and raining for 12 days straight...but, there was one important lesson to be learned: Be in the now. Don't continue to think about tomorrow because today could be your last.

Now that isn't a really uplifting thing to think about, today could be your last. But, I really do believe that you can take away that you should live everyday to the fullest. Make yourself happy, choose to enjoy your life. Don't let it just pass you by. I think that I need to start instilling those thoughts in my mind. Obviously I don't live in a bubble. I would like to look at the outside more. Enjoy God's creation. Realize all that I have in my life currently without being so dissatisfied with little things.

I have a home, a loving husband, a great job. There are so many blessings in my life, yet a lot of the time I can't see them. Instead I am bitter at ridiculous situations and make myself miserable in the process. Now what fun is that? How crazy is one to just let themselves be unhappy and in denial about all the good in their lives.

I guess I have been reading a lot of Job lately, so of course I think about these bizarre things. It is just interesting to think about how fast time flies past you, and how much you are able to accomplish one day at a time, enjoying every minute of it.